You Cause the Best Kind of Pain

You send searing tears down my cheeks. A shiver down my spine. Your kiss brings hatred, your voice a shudder. Your words bring lies, undetected. Your face declares a two-fisted glare. The thought of you brings utter distress. You cut my wounds open again. You have done no good. You beg for my forgiveness, but that's just a different kind of torture. Your pleading gets you nothing and along comes the numb. You make me go numb in every limb, in my heart and in my head. A cloud of steaming, burning, aching fog. A throbbing brain. Blinded eyes with no darkness. No protection, but I don't mind. A rocking in my heart. The cord's been cut. There is no more connection, only pain.The pain is too great, but it's the best kind. The kind that stays long past its welcome. You brought it on and I loathe you for that. For now and always, it is ONCE UPON A NIGHTMARE!

I'm Happier Now That I Have What I Wanted All Along

I'm happier now that I'm free of you. I got what I said I'd get. I did my part and I don't care if you do your's. I'm still not pleased with your face. I think about what I have now all the time. I smile at his name now, not your's. I'm free, I'm free, I'm free! I left you in the dust.

I can't stop thinking about the worst day ever, the day I met you

The worst day ever was the day I met you my "heart breaker", my friend, my advice giver. I wish I'd never met you things surely would be fine. I really don't miss you when you're not here, I never have and never will. I'm sorry if I break your heart, but nothing hurt worse the day you crossed my mind, you blurred my vision, my sense of sight, you made me straight up blind. I never meant to lie, but I did there for awhile. If I sent you mixed messages I'm now out of your range I wish I could stay out forever, but time ceases to end. I'd mend your heart if you'd go away, stay away for real. Not petty this or petty that "I have a broken hand." I refuse to ever say that I did love you 'til the end and nor were you my other shoe.

Mef and it's Meaning

Mef: a fairly uncommon term used as a substitute for grunts, moans, whatever's or WTF's. I personally believe "mef" is a great word, but like I said it's just my opinion...so I hope that cleared up any questions you had about "mef." If I do use it you will fully and completely understand mef and it's meaning!

One in a Million

If I had the chance to describe myself and feelings with a million words among the first ten would be hatrid, resent, $*** and anti-social. My life is way to hard to take. With every step I make there's a certain price that I pay. I live for today not tomorrow or yesterday. I take baby steps when I think that I might break the smile on my face. It's fake as you now know. I try so hard to wake each day with at least half of that fake smile on the face I must call mine. I worry about appearence, but only with the blind. It's horrifically, disasterously, dangerously true. If you knew I had a least favorite word, which I do, I bet you'd say smile since mine's fake, but actually it's love 'cause that's even easier to break.

If I Ever

If I ever were to be happy it would be at my funeral. If I ever exsisted in a past-life it sucked. If I ever win it's rigged. If I ever smile it's fake. If I ever wish it's a dream. If I ever love I still won't understand it. If I ever live I must be dead. If I ever hope I'm acting like a kid again.

In an all too perfect world...

In an all too perfect world....life is great, almost happy, but the world isn't meant to be perfect. It's flawed, and scarred. It's damaged goods, goods never to be repaired, like the red sock in the load of whites. It ruins all in it's burdened path,but we all know life is just ONCE UPON A NIGHTMARE