I'm Happier Now That I Have What I Wanted All Along

I'm happier now that I'm free of you. I got what I said I'd get. I did my part and I don't care if you do your's. I'm still not pleased with your face. I think about what I have now all the time. I smile at his name now, not your's. I'm free, I'm free, I'm free! I left you in the dust.

I can't stop thinking about the worst day ever, the day I met you

The worst day ever was the day I met you my "heart breaker", my friend, my advice giver. I wish I'd never met you things surely would be fine. I really don't miss you when you're not here, I never have and never will. I'm sorry if I break your heart, but nothing hurt worse the day you crossed my mind, you blurred my vision, my sense of sight, you made me straight up blind. I never meant to lie, but I did there for awhile. If I sent you mixed messages I'm now out of your range I wish I could stay out forever, but time ceases to end. I'd mend your heart if you'd go away, stay away for real. Not petty this or petty that "I have a broken hand." I refuse to ever say that I did love you 'til the end and nor were you my other shoe.

Mef and it's Meaning

Mef: a fairly uncommon term used as a substitute for grunts, moans, whatever's or WTF's. I personally believe "mef" is a great word, but like I said it's just my opinion...so I hope that cleared up any questions you had about "mef." If I do use it you will fully and completely understand mef and it's meaning!

One in a Million

If I had the chance to describe myself and feelings with a million words among the first ten would be hatrid, resent, $*** and anti-social. My life is way to hard to take. With every step I make there's a certain price that I pay. I live for today not tomorrow or yesterday. I take baby steps when I think that I might break the smile on my face. It's fake as you now know. I try so hard to wake each day with at least half of that fake smile on the face I must call mine. I worry about appearence, but only with the blind. It's horrifically, disasterously, dangerously true. If you knew I had a least favorite word, which I do, I bet you'd say smile since mine's fake, but actually it's love 'cause that's even easier to break.

If I Ever

If I ever were to be happy it would be at my funeral. If I ever exsisted in a past-life it sucked. If I ever win it's rigged. If I ever smile it's fake. If I ever wish it's a dream. If I ever love I still won't understand it. If I ever live I must be dead. If I ever hope I'm acting like a kid again.

In an all too perfect world...

In an all too perfect world....life is great, almost happy, but the world isn't meant to be perfect. It's flawed, and scarred. It's damaged goods, goods never to be repaired, like the red sock in the load of whites. It ruins all in it's burdened path,but we all know life is just ONCE UPON A NIGHTMARE

How to make life better-ish.

Maintain good posture with your feet pointing forward, this will give the illusion of balance and inner well being
Shower before going out the fresher you smell and look makes you appear clean, tidy and seem as if you have the power to get up in the morning-y hours (wet curls are always a head turner)
Be shy and be nice
Always remember to put on your best fake smile and welcome everyone to your home
If your going to someone else's house ring the doorbell only after the 4 stroke knock
Always put the make-up on right...that means mascara and and eyeliner applied lightly
 Go for the natural look put a gold or tan blush on the cheekbones. (this makes it seem like you give a $***)
Life is always better with lemon smelling a fresh lemon during dark hours lifts you up and energizes as well
Keep your attire loose but not stingy or depressing
Put a clear coat on your nails and most importantly
RELAX! A little meditation will calm you down and bring peace to those in your inner circle ;)
Follow these rules and it will seem like life isn't always ONCE UPON A NIGHTMARE!