With Open Eyes

I watch, with open eyes. I see her. Him. Together. Apart. I see what makes them bad. What doesn't make them good. Why he can't let go and she won't commit. I wait. Wait. Wait. Until the day, she falls and he breaks. I wait until the day, where I can live what I see and stop watching. Because I will NOT let you hurt. I won't let you down. I will catch you when you fall and glue you back together when you break, Because I have watched, waited. I have waited&watched you crumble slowly in her arms that don't support all the love you carry. And I have learned what you need and want. I have been waiting for oh-so-long. Just, just, let me, let me love you.

Dime

You're a dime. A ten. A stunner. You're a shiny coin always with me, somehow or another.
You told me forever, same as a circle, almost like a dime, nevermind, you're just a nine.
How much would it take for you to say I was great, screw nine, make that eight.
Surprised to hear you don't believe in Heaven, let's tell the whole world and change that to seven.
Ignored me for a whole day just to buy new kicks, they were ugly and now you're at six.
You told me I made you feel alive, now I'm dead to you, so how 'bout five.
I cant cry you rivers anymore, wash your hands of me, you're a four.
Now it's I and You, not We, forget four, for that, you can be a three.
There was us, Me and You, take away your mistake and you're left with two.
You hate me and now we're done, we can make you just a one.

Yes.

I gave up the BEST thing I ever had, for what? Three weeks of high-fives with another guy? Damn, I have to be the STUPIDEST girl in the world. What we had was special, I had NEVER felt that way about ANYONE. With you things were, different. I actually felt pretty with you, whether I wore Gucci or sweatpants, you didn't care. To you, it didn't matter, to you I was gorgeous all the time. When you hugged me, NOTHING else mattered, when you looked at me with those crystal blue eyes I was speechless. I loved love you more than life itself, I would have taken a bullet for you, still would. I wish, that you would at LEAST, let me tell you how I feel. I mean, we were so "cute" together, right? We got past being cut off from each other almost completely. I never understood until now that one word could have so many different meanings. It's the word that brought us together, and tore us apart. "Yes" is the word that both perfected, and destructed my life. It's the word that made me cry tears of joy, and tears of horrible pain. A pain like no other, I've been to hell and back, but this, this pain I felt was, indescribably horrid. I don't think that I will EVER forgive myself for saying that one little word. Nightmares come true all the time, I just thought I'd had my share of that for ten lifetimes.